mascaraed

Rip off that mask you're wearing

ain't no mascaraed 

TONIGHT!!!

It's not just yourself you're scaring

you've got me afraid

TONIGHT!!!

rip it off...

 before your soul it takes

rip it... off before your heart it breaks

TONIGHT!!!

I couldn't realize your eyes

they were hidden beyond your

LIES!!!

Rip off that mask you're wearing 

it's ripping your soul 

APART!!!

I in despair... showed you my care

so TONIGHT 

I will... 

rip off that mask you're wearing

save that soul your tearing 

APART!!!

deep inside 

you've committed suicide

you are now

DEAD!!!

like them

you have lost your way

trying to live 

life their way

so TONIGHT

I will...

rip off that mask you're wearing

and make you human 

AGAIN!!!

THIS IS TO ALL THOSE WHO LOST THEIR WAY TRYING TO SURVIVE EVERY DAY

Once Again

When all hell was set loose I found my way through... from the Abyss from the darkest bottom of the universe I just struggled towards the land... with each step forth angels of death tried to drag me back down... back to the kingdom of there masters... I pushed them away sometimes with a kick and at others by simply giving in... and as I fell back down each time I gave into them my will got stronger as my soul grew older... then within time I just got back to earth Rinsed from all my sins and the sins of my Father and those of my Mother... I was clearly a new born... so as I went out and saw the light for the first time in a very long time all I could do was scream out loud a scream of joy... only to see my reflection in a mirror I was a baby one more time merely a few months old I couldn't believe and my sudden scream of joy turned into tears of sympathy... as I had come back to find my way back to the kingdom of heaven once again...
So is the story of birth... such is the struggle of the soul... every soul each and every day we die in hope of living once again...

Heaven in Five

Close your eyes.... take a deep breath... 5,4,3,2,1... now open up your eyes what do you see?!
I can tell you what I normally see:

I can see butterflies flying above my head... 

I can see flowers covering the roof of my room.... 

I can see waterfalls streaming down my walls... 

I can feel the clouds swifting below my body... 

I can float on nothingness... 

I can kiss the sky... 

I can see God... 

I can touch the hearts of angels... 

I can kiss my loved ones goodbye one last time as they look me straight in the eye...

Tonight I'm in a different Haven...

Tonight I am at peace and no longer in pain...

This is a night I can go back to again and again....

now I open my eyes one more time...

the walls are pale white...

the roof is stained with old paint...

the dust is floating above my head...

the heat is overwhelming...

life feels like hell...

but for 5 seconds I can relive heaven and that is worth visiting a million hell... 

only now I know how much I miss my  

 Personal Haven... 

every one of us has a paradise lost... I just hope you can all find it within your heart after every deep breath you take... cause it is the only thing that keeps a smile and saves a soul...